Last July, I wrote here about feeling blah and starting the medication Zoloft. Then I wrote about how it helped me out.
Well, now I'm writing about how I quit.
I quit taking Zoloft a few weeks ago.
I had been warned to taper off of it slowly. Apparently quitting cold turkey can make one feel horrible. So taper I did. I was routinely taking 25 mg (half a pill) every day. For about two weeks I took 25 mg every other day. For another two weeks, I took 25 mg twice a week. And then I kept forgetting to take it, so I quit.
Originally I wanted to taper off in November, after Reese turned one. But then we moved that month and I didn't think moving to a new state was the best time to rock the boat with altering my medication. I waited until mid-January to start weaning down my dose.
So far so good! I feel...good. Like myself. I'm trying to be ridiculously self-aware these days to make sure I'm not slipping off the edge of a depression cliff. If you know me in real life, feel free to provide me feedback with your observations!! Wow...that's a dangerous statement. Don't all ten of you that know me and read this blog provide feedback at once. Might be overwhelming... ;)
A wise, helpful family member pointed me in the direction of this self-assessment tool. My plan is to take this quiz every few weeks to see how I'm doing. So far, according to that quiz, I'm a HAPPINESS FREAKIN ROCK STAR. That feels encouraging. Obviously every day isn't like that, but that's okay. My "average" is a lot higher than it used to be, for which I am grateful.
I'm interested in other people again. I have a lot more energy day to day. I don't dread time with my kids. (I think) I'm handling this job transition more healthily than I would have six months ago. Some days, even when I don't work, I STILL shower. Wow. If that's not a positive indication, I don't know what is.
So there ya have it. I felt sad. I feel better.
How about you? Have you ever taken antidepressants? Or anti-anxiety meds? For how long? How did it go if/when you tried to stop taking them?
Thanks for reading and helping an extrovert like myself to not feel alone!